What's that? Day 2? Surely I'm on day 360-something? Well no, my ear was my undoing really. So much psychological crap stopping me from exercising, can't get any help for it because doctors have never heard of it, blah blah blah.
I still get down about it. But I finally braved the gym for the first time this year a couple of months ago. My ear didn't play up and I felt great. But then I started to get scared that it would happen the second time! So I didn't go again.
I've joined the 6 week Spring Into Action challenge over at We Are Slimming. I'll be very happy just to complete the damn thing, as I've never managed to complete any kind of finite challenge before. Not even my 13 week one last year (and I got so close too! :( )
Off to a good start, I've gotten up at 5:30 the last two mornings to do 20 mins on the exercise bike, then have done more after work. Tomorrow I have to go to the hairdresser, Thursday the waxer and then Friday we're driving up to Wodonga for my cousin's wedding on Saturday. I plan to fully enjoy myself and not worry too much while I'm up there but next week I'll be back into the gym.
I think I might have developed exercise-induced asthma though. It started when I was doing C25K last year - and was why I stopped actually. As soon as I'd start running my throat would close up and I'd start wheezing. It got really scary one day when I was a couple of kms away from home, and had to walk all the way back and it didn't stop the whole way - until I got home and had some of Bass Boy's ventolin. Anyway it seems worse, I'm getting wheezy on the bike and on the tready just walking with an incline. Better get to the doctor quick smart. I've never had anything like this before!
I spent the last couple of months on Lite N Easy which was a complete waste of money - I think I actually gained weight. I was on the 1500 calorie menu - but only lunches and dinners - and I was just hungry all the time. And something about it just made me crave sweet stuff... I think I ate more chocolate on that than I ever have! Plus I never want to look at a microwave meal again!
Anyway last night I cooked a meal for the first time in, well, months! It was awesome, just chicken and veg with a bit of gravy. So good. Chicken Cacciatore is on the menu tonight. Steak & veg tomorrow and a spinach and ham frittata on Thursday. Then we'll have the leftover in sandwiches on the way to wodonga - no need to stop at that newish giant fast food place - it seriously have every fast food you can think of.
Oh, better put in my starting stuff..
Weight: 87.0kg
Bust: 100cm
Waist: 82.5cm
Hips: 106.5cm
Arm: 33.5
Neck: 32cm
Shoulder: 103cm
Thigh: 68cm
Calf: 43cm
All those numbers look wayyyy too familiar! My bust has never been that big though! My period is about to come so maybe that's why. I've never seen that measurement over 97cm.
Anyway I totally busted my index finger today typing in endless numbers and it's really hurting to type! Geez does that warrant a sicky tomorrow? ;)
I'm on a soft food diet for my TMJ. All I can think of is:
- eggs
- soup
- yoghurt
- cottage cheese
- porridge
- soft fruits (pureed apple, canned peaches, bananas etc)
- coffee ;)
Make it. Now.
The calories might be low but at least it's better than how I've been eating lately. Ugh.
I'm seeing a Bowen therapist for my TMJ. And I'm starting meditation for stress relief. Although a new job would probably do the trick there.
I am hoping that fixing TMJ will help with my ear as they appear to be linked. Oh, and I'm only allowed to walk for the few days after Bowen treatments. Again, probably better than what I've been doing lately (that would be nothing).
I don't want to go back and read it but if I recall correctly, my last post was full of whinging and self-pity. My apologies!
I've finally stopped eating shit and started exercising again! Well I'm starting off very slow, because I do not want to go all hardcore for a week and then drop off again. My ear is still giving me the absolute shits, but I've found that the stationary bike doesn't usually trigger it, so I've been using that and walking on the treadmill. My goal is to do that 4 times this week (done 2 so far). I'm just going to stick to stuff at home for now, so that if the ear does go, I can just lie down straight away (the quickest remedy).
There's evidence to suggest that a Patulous Eustachian Tube is related to TMJ issues, which I have. I know I clench my teeth a lot, especially when I'm stressed (and my ear gets worse during times of stress) but my dentist said my teeth are worn down from grinding, which I didn't know I did. This morning I got myself a little nightguard thing which is supposed to stop me from grinding/clenching in my sleep. I hope this will help with my TMJ symptoms (sore jaw, headaches, dizziness, earaches) AND I hope that it will help just a little with my ear. Sigh.
Anyway my weight is somewhere around the 85kg mark at the moment...it may have almost hit 89 not too long ago though. So now I'm around 4kgs off what I was pre-NZ freakout.
I'd like to drop 20kgs before the wedding - that's doable, I've got til March 27th next year!
Thinking about Vietnam/Laos/Thailand for the honeymoon... I think I'm more excited about planning that, than planning the wedding :D
I'm going to try using this thing a bit more. I get so self-conscious about blogging though!
Hi folks (if there's any folks out there...helloooo?)
So things haven't been great for the last couple of months. My ear seems to be a constant bother now, rather than an intermittent thing. I haven't been to the gym for months. I had a few good days over Christmas and attempted to go for a bike ride - half way up the second hill (maybe 10 mins in) along came the autophony - I had to walk my bike home while sobbing hysterically. I must've looked like a little girl who'd just had her lunch money stolen.
I've done a little bit of walking lately, but the other day I let the dog off the leash and ran around with her for a couple of minutes - autophony. Tears.
I've been seeing a chiropractor - and after the first adjustment all my symptoms disappeared! I was so happy. But they all came back within a week.
I've been having a bout of vertigo for the last week or so too which has brought up the possibility of my condition maybe being Superior Canal Dishiscence Syndrome. That's where there's a tiny gap in the bone above the semi-circular canal in the inner ear. The good news is, that with a high resolution cat scan of the temporal bone, it can be detected (and thus definitively diagnosed, unlike PET). There's then an option of cranial surgery which has a high success rate.
So, scary brain surgery aside, I really hope that's what it is. I have doubts though - sadly I think that I do have PET, and my balance problems are a separate issue.
My chiropractor wants to treat me over four weeks and if there's been no improvement he has a GP to send me to who he assures will actually listen.
It's just that hardly anyone seems to have heard of either condition (SCDS was only discovered in 1998) and people just think I'm crazy.
This problem is ruining my life. I've been depressed almost to the point of feeling suicidal over the last few weeks.
In weight-related news, I'm up about 4kgs from my pre-NZ weight. Healthy eating and exercise go hand in hand for me so if I can't exercise I find it so much more difficult to eat well. Depression doesn't help.
Thank you for your engagement congratulations, I'm starting to get excited about the whole wedding thing, although I keep worrying about my ear on the actual day. We are looking at getting married next year, I like the last weekend of March but I suppose that will depend on the availability of whatever venue we decide on.
We're inspecting Montsalvat in Eltham on the weekend and Melbourne Zoo next weekend. I have fallen in love with Montsalvat from photos, plus the interiors are beautiful so weather becomes less important (actually I think a dark day would really suit the place!). It's expensive though. It's hard to know what our budget is because my parents haven't yet said how much they're willing to contribute.
I always wanted to get married up in the Dandenongs but since actually looking at the places, they all just look the same to me. Wedding machines - the same wedding week in week out, spitting them out over and over. I do not want to be a cog in a wedding machine!
I'm going to be starting study soon, in IT. I have a secret ambition of becoming a nutritionist or dietician but simply can't afford to study full-time so I don't know how I will ever realise this!
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