13 weeks

Eeek! The Monster!!! Kill it!!! Or at least make it come already so I turn back into a rational... ok, more rational person!

Actually tiredness is the main problem I think. I don't really feel moody, except for yesterday and this morning. Coincided with me forgetting to take 5-HTP. I took it this morning and have been fine today.

So very tired. I usually get up at 5:30 if I'm walking the dog, 6 if I'm not. I couldn't drag myself out of bed until about 6:40 this morning. I came home at lunch and walked her, and did C25K after work. Fuck it was hard. It was the hardest session I've ever done - which doesn't make sense because I did the exact same session on Monday. My calves just tightened right up and then my hamstrings. It hurt and I was feeling much less fit than I was yesterday. I wanted to stop so bad and I nearly did, but then I would have been a quitter and I didn't want to be a quitter, so I finished it. I felt exhausted when I got home but.

Er, so then I had some toast with my dinner (again - damn you, bread and your crack-like qualities!)... and then an Eskimo Pie which I ate without even realising what I was doing. I stopped myself before I went back for the second one though. Argh.

I just want to have one week that goes exactly to plan! I suppose PMS week is probably a bit ambitious for that. I am really, really hoping for maintenance this week. Then I'd secretly know I'd lost weight, because I'm full of fluid. Even after drinking 5 or 6 Pump bottles yesterday! I feel so gross.

Fuck that Eskimo Pie was good though.